Friday, September 28, 2007

Having a Meltdown

The X-ray showed that his lungs are still full of "gook" as the doctor put it. He prescribed another inhaler and two tests. A TB test, we go back on Monday to have it read, and a Sweat Test to check for Cystic Fibrosis, the earliest test appointment for that is Monday the 8th.

I did not know what CF was so I "Googled" it and now I am terrified and all I can do is cry.

I don't understand how he could be so healthy just a few short weeks ago and now he is being tested for diseases!!! I have more questions than answers and after I have myself a good cry I am probably going to become very angry and quite aggressive. I can feel my Mama Bear instincts taking over even as I type, so perhaps the next prayer requests should be for the doctors down at Kaiser.

11 comments:

Sophie Honeysuckle said...

Oh no poor you! I hope your son will be alright and hopefully the tests will be clear. The doctor was hopefully just wanting to test as a precaution, that's what our doctors do over here. I'll defintely be keeping you all in my prayers xx

Penny Carlson said...

Stay Positive! And learn all you can! I know things will turn out perfect. I will keep you in my prayers....
Hugs,
Penny

Kathleen Grace said...

Rhonda, I can see that you have had a tough day (week!) Stay strong, don't lose faith. I will add your son to my prayer list and God will help you through. Count your blessings too!

julia said...

I remember the intense anxiety I felt when my kids were not well; it's an awful feeling. I am so sorry you are all going through this scary time. You are in my prayers.

Esther Sunday said...

Just wanted you to know that I am thinking very very much about you. You are so on top of it, so it could be helpful. Please keep us posted. With love, Esther

Meggie said...

Oh Rhonda, I am so sorry to hear that your beautiful son is still sick. I will pray for your family, I promise. While you have every right to be angry, remember that you will be able to attain more information and assistance if you channel your anger into constructive energy for your little boy. Good luck...I hope you can feel the prayers.

BittersweetPunkin said...

Rhonda....I wanted to check in and I'm glad I did....the BEST thing you can do right now is NOT use Google ....you'll get too much information and just get upset. I know we have a "need to know" but put it in God's hands...pray hard and often.

I know you read my post today and the reason I wanted to speak to you now is because I had a questionable chest Xray...fluid in/on my lungs which caused my Dr to order an CT scan of my chest yesterday and delay my gall bladder surgery...I still haven't heard and my nerves are frazzled. I googled and came up with the most extreme diagnosis which is prolly so far from what it really is...thats why I had to just walk away from the computer and pray.
I will include your Baby in my conversations with God.
Love to you and don't worry-
Robin

Nunnie's Attic said...

Rhonda,
Honey I'm so sorry. But, let's not put the cart before the horse just yet. These are only tests. They are searching for worst case scenarios. I'm sure his doctors probably don't "think" he has CF, they just want to make sure. Nonetheless, this has helped me in the past: Take down a basket, write your worries on a slip of paper and put them in it. Give that basket up to God and ask Him to deal with them. It's quite cathartic. In the meantime, I will be praying for you, your son and those physicians. Not for the reason you said, but for the wisdom they need to properly treat your son.

Much love to you,
Julie

Yellow Rose Arbor said...

I'm praying for your precious little boy, and for you!

Katherine

Amy at Bunny Rose Cottage said...

I am so sorry. I will be adding your sweet baby boy to my prayer list and I will be checking in to see how he is doing as well.

Hugs to you all,
Amy

Melissa @ The Inspired Room said...

I am so sorry I am late for this news. Keep praying, I will too. God has it under control, even when we can't see it.

Love,
Melissa